Dear SG,
I want itunes gift cards. I dont know where to get them on a wishlist. Please help me.
Thank you,
Bitteroo!
PS: i want this too please! Cannon XL2 DV Camera
PSS: So today I didnt sleep, i stayed up the entire night and then said fuck it, Im gonna stay up till tonight and then sleep. So being tired I started cleaning like i normaly do when extreamly tired. Like most people I found things long lost, old music (sheet music) from school, my year book with only 2 signatures, and a box. This little box is a box of memories. All of my notes and letters between me and people who cared about me. Especially her, this girl that I truely fell in love with. Oh love what a silly thing. Espcially when you are still quite emotionally imature. You know how boys are, they cling to you and stick around way to much. You adore them but then soon start to distain them due to a complete lack of individuality. Yah I was one of them. This girl fixed that for me. Broke my heart and make me close up and examin myself. Maybe I am not the same person, infact I believe i have changed considerably. I am not so quick to attach, I can tell a crush from true feelings and I am my own person. I have my own likes and dislike, my personality traits and my joys. I think I am ready now, ready to try it all again, meet a girl and actually have an emotional connection. Now the hard part is to actually meet a girl you know. With these years of emotional detachment I have lost parts of me that would have made this easy. I dont have places that I go i dont have a large group of local friends to socialise with. My local friends are used to me being closed and thus dont invite me to events etc. But this is all ok, I think now I am alright and this time for real. I have a photograph of her in my box, I didnt remember having it, but when i saw it, I rememberd. This is strange becuase I have been loseing my memory, I dont remember much anymore. But I remembered every time I looked at that picture, and when she handed it to me with a hug and a huge smile on her face, and when I read the notes I remembered the events written about, I remembered the memories that I had with her. IT was all quite strange to actually remember things again! I have mixed feelings now, Im sad, Im happy, and I am relieved. But most of all, im Confused. Im lost and no longer wishing to be. I want to choose a path and grow further. What will do that? What of the choices in front of me will make me better. I know i cant ride the easy wave, I wont ever be happy. Do I want to cook? Do I want to make films, Do I want to be a 3d artist? Do I really want to join the army and become a soldier and then decide? So many choices, so little money and even less willpower! Anyhow this is much to long as it is, thanks for readin!
I want itunes gift cards. I dont know where to get them on a wishlist. Please help me.
Thank you,
Bitteroo!
PS: i want this too please! Cannon XL2 DV Camera
PSS: So today I didnt sleep, i stayed up the entire night and then said fuck it, Im gonna stay up till tonight and then sleep. So being tired I started cleaning like i normaly do when extreamly tired. Like most people I found things long lost, old music (sheet music) from school, my year book with only 2 signatures, and a box. This little box is a box of memories. All of my notes and letters between me and people who cared about me. Especially her, this girl that I truely fell in love with. Oh love what a silly thing. Espcially when you are still quite emotionally imature. You know how boys are, they cling to you and stick around way to much. You adore them but then soon start to distain them due to a complete lack of individuality. Yah I was one of them. This girl fixed that for me. Broke my heart and make me close up and examin myself. Maybe I am not the same person, infact I believe i have changed considerably. I am not so quick to attach, I can tell a crush from true feelings and I am my own person. I have my own likes and dislike, my personality traits and my joys. I think I am ready now, ready to try it all again, meet a girl and actually have an emotional connection. Now the hard part is to actually meet a girl you know. With these years of emotional detachment I have lost parts of me that would have made this easy. I dont have places that I go i dont have a large group of local friends to socialise with. My local friends are used to me being closed and thus dont invite me to events etc. But this is all ok, I think now I am alright and this time for real. I have a photograph of her in my box, I didnt remember having it, but when i saw it, I rememberd. This is strange becuase I have been loseing my memory, I dont remember much anymore. But I remembered every time I looked at that picture, and when she handed it to me with a hug and a huge smile on her face, and when I read the notes I remembered the events written about, I remembered the memories that I had with her. IT was all quite strange to actually remember things again! I have mixed feelings now, Im sad, Im happy, and I am relieved. But most of all, im Confused. Im lost and no longer wishing to be. I want to choose a path and grow further. What will do that? What of the choices in front of me will make me better. I know i cant ride the easy wave, I wont ever be happy. Do I want to cook? Do I want to make films, Do I want to be a 3d artist? Do I really want to join the army and become a soldier and then decide? So many choices, so little money and even less willpower! Anyhow this is much to long as it is, thanks for readin!
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