Heyoka is back, I missed him.
Its nice to read his journals because he is often able to express my own feelings better than I...
I am still trying to fit back into the placement where I exist here in Seattle. On a daily basis, many many times since I have returned from Italy, I have become overwhelmed by the urge to GO. Since experiencing the freedom of abandon that can accompany unrestrained exploration and travel, I can hardly wait to leave again and have already begun to arrange my next trip.
I am blissful, immersed in nature with free reign....hence Blyss
What do you want to do with your life?
Me? I want to ride the wave of life as best I can without steering too much, you know what I mean? I want to sit at the crest and go with the flow. Its hard to do. It takes work not to want to paddle foward or swim back or dive under ....
Its nice to read his journals because he is often able to express my own feelings better than I...
I am still trying to fit back into the placement where I exist here in Seattle. On a daily basis, many many times since I have returned from Italy, I have become overwhelmed by the urge to GO. Since experiencing the freedom of abandon that can accompany unrestrained exploration and travel, I can hardly wait to leave again and have already begun to arrange my next trip.
I am blissful, immersed in nature with free reign....hence Blyss
What do you want to do with your life?
Me? I want to ride the wave of life as best I can without steering too much, you know what I mean? I want to sit at the crest and go with the flow. Its hard to do. It takes work not to want to paddle foward or swim back or dive under ....
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Hmm, I feel the exact same way (surprise, surprise) though I think you are about a week or two ahead of me. I can already feel the unrestrained wanderlust lapping at the floodgates. I've learned long ago how futile it is to suppress these feelings. Sometimes I need to leap the world's ties completely for a long period of time; a world that I'm only half connected to anyway. If I do not, this world's half is useless.
The last time this happened, was three years ago, almost to the day. I received this message from my friend K:
Subject: i did it!
Body: so when do we leave?
And then it was on.
What do I want to do with my life? It's a difficult question with an answer that is not the same as it was 5 years ago, or 5 before that. I believe my life has a distinct purpose, though it is not clear yet what this is. I can only see glimpses of it from time to time. Until this becomes clear, my goals are simple. I want to love and be loved, as these are the most important things to me. I want to live with accountability for my words and actions. I want to leave no one in my wake; to never hurt anyone intentionally, and act with responsibility when it's unintentional. To live with faith in life's hidden undercurrents, always. To never give up.
But as Thomas Wolfe said, ``You cant go home again.''