blulotus

mothers day was great.i got nothing material in terms of gifts,but i got it all in other ways.i was with those i love and i felt loved!most important things ever.

the run/walk for breast cancer was awsome!i will definetly do it again!!!there are so many people there united for 1 cause it is amazing!it is so positive.

my pic is gone but i will put up a new one very soon!

here is my rant in james' journal it is an issue i struggle with everyday:
you are so right james.i have come to this realization myself a few years ago, and it is a constant journey and struggle. i also find that parents and society don't agree with me.why is it that people feel like everyone and everything must have a label.i don't look punk there for i am not,is punk a look?a mindset?or am i a girly girl?a tomboy?am i a nerd?people say i'm shy,concieted,nice,too blunt.i can't be hard-core (whatever that is!) i'm so small and normal looking. i LOOK too young to be a mommy.people ask me WHAT ARE YOU?FUCK it ALL.i am me. i am ever changing and growing.thats all i can be.and yes it can be tough to let go of the "rules" impressed upon me since i was born!
but i have to let go and do what is right for me!

god this topic is sooo frustrating for me.it's hard to live in a society that worships youth,beauty,and celebirty.

any way on a lighter note i posted pics of my gorgeous son and the walk