blulotus

i am having a bit of a crisis. i have been going to college for 5 years now. when i got pregnant in 2002 i slowed way down on the school thing. and this semester i'm not in school either. anyway i should be getting my A.A. in about 2 more semesters. (meanwhile my brother who is a year younger than me is graduating this summer )
anyway i have always been a journalism major but right now i'm not so sure what i want to do anymore. i love to write and my original plan was to end up writing for a magazine. but now i'm not so sure (and i'm not getting any younger) i mean i don't want to spend my life writing about meaningless shit like who britney spears is fucking this week (ALLEGEDLY), or what the new fad diet is. i mean i want more than that there are so many more important things in life and so many people who are suffering, or peole who are being treated unjust, or horrible things that are happening to our planet. i don't know maybe i'm just a sap.
anyway i need to get my shit straight and pronto!
ah, what a release!!!