blujinxx

From what I gather, A1AT deficiency is a powerful ailment that kills without mercy. My biological grandmother was about 43, my biological father was 42, 10% lung capacity when he died. Assuming that I hav another sixteen years to live, what do I do with this time? Sixteen years sounds like a long time until you consider that I'll be somewhere around forty years old when I die. Forty years old. Vodka, you are my friend, so why do you hurt me so?

So 90-200 is a normal level for A1AT. In 2007 or 2008 i found out that my biological father had alpha one anti trypsin deficiency. it kills your lungs. so i got tested. my level came back at about 72.

this year, since i'm already being kicked out for being crazy, i decided that maybe the army was trying to fuck me back in the day with the testing. so i got tested again for A1AT deficiency. my level now?

58.2.

I'm dying.

58.2%. I don't even hav to contemplate suicide now. My body is doing it for me.

Every spiritually inclined person i've ever talked to has told me i hav an old soul, so i reckon this is my last cycle through this reality. i'm just here to finish up something i couldn't before i died last time. but i hav to figure out who i am before i can find my twin flame. until then, i am in a weird kind of limbo