blujazzmunki

I'm sorry this is going to seem like a pile of tear drenched tissues, but this self pity has to be released.


I don't wanna see anyone tonight, unless they wanna cuddle, I'm gonna immerse myself comfort food, as much work as I have to do, it can wait. Sarah can stop pestering me, she maybe a good friend, but right now I want someone who acts like they care about me, not themselves all the time, and thats the way she is acting. To be honest though, I don't wanna spend time with a friend, I wanna feel truly loved, I'm not sure if I ever even that feeling, infact right now all I know is I feel empty and full of angst

Quite simply what is wrong with me? I'm falling back into my adolescent insecurities as every second passes. Though I doubt I ever lost them, I feel destined to be insecure.

This room is to claustrophobic, as is this house, I want to walk out and go somewhere warm and welcoming, I just don't know where that is. At the minute I don't know anything, it seems.

Laura, is no longer any help, she has her problems, I know, but I can't survive with anyone, when I have to instigate all the communication.

I just don't know what to do with myself.