blujazzmunki

I feel for numerous reasons, all I know is I'm feeling lonely, been out with two mates tonight who both go out with me without their girls because they feel that it'd be uncomfortable just the three of us, and both want me to have a girl so we can go out as a four. But the more I think about it all I've not ever came across a girl I could see my spending four weeks with, and the more I do this the more I become self aware, lose confidence, revert to vanity in the form of grooming products, I mean I'm considering highlights, need I say more.
So I'll drink myself to sleep, maybe fall into a coma, it might just be better than this reality, or if not then well maybe I'll just start painting things black and blue, then they can match me.
Is it just me, but aren't men not meant to think this way, I'm sure we're not meant to be so emotional regarding relationships.