bluevalentine

If there is anything good that can come from Burlesque drama, its that it makes boy drama pale in comparison.

So, a couple weeks back, I posted a journal entry about some issues with one of the girls in the troop.

Today was our first rehersal after the break.

She never called back to talk to me.

Well, the first half hour of what should have been our rehersals was spent with her laying into me saying I misrepersented the show and the fact that we would all be equals and that a dancer would have complete creative control etc etc etc.

I explained that yes, we are equals, but that someone has to be in charge of stuff for business, so that places know who to contact for booking and who can keep everything organised that this is my baby and its my ass and my pockebook on the line.

I also explained that each girl did have control in what they do and how they presented themselves, but I want to make sure an act is going to fit with the show since none of the girls in the troop have ever been a burlesque performer. I can't have someone dancing to the themesong from koyaanisqatsi or something.

And it just continued and continued until I said "we can go around and around like this the rest of the night. Lets do this. Tell me what you need from me and I'll tell you what I need from you and we'll make sure it's going to work if you are going to continue" to which she responds "I dont need anything from you so I'm going to take my stuff and just know that its YOU who kicked me out and that I didn't quit"

I thought that if she quit, I would be relieved. I've ended up shaking, in tears. Not because we are short one girl. But because she constantly questioned my honesty and integrity as a person and a director. I can't handle that.

I don't want to be seen as someone who isnt approachable. Someone that, if you have a concern about something I am doing, you have to be scared of. After Renei left, came back into the rehersal hall where everyone was waiting and kept saying "if anyone needs anything from me or help with anything or something doesnt seem right, you can call me or email me or pull me aside anytime at all" just so that everyone knew.

It just sucks having someone call you an outright fake, especially in regards to something you hold so dear and are spending so many hours and so much money to make happen.

The rest of the girls kept telling me that they felt I was doing a good job and such but I still feel horrible.