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I'm pretty worried right now. Everyone else seems so happy, and things... well, they've picked up a bit for me as well. But I'm so afraid that I'll just lose it all in a flash. I'm terrified that my grades will go to shit, I'll never find a job, and the incredible girl patiently waiting for me.... won't be anymore.

I've always kind of thought that in the future all the jobs will be filled by robots, with the exception of repairing the robots. That's probably why computers seemed like such a good idea. But I'm slowly losing my confidence in how far I could coast on a 2 year applied-sciences degree in whatever branch of information systems.

The good news is that this is the most neurotic and compressed I've ever felt, and it's going to inspire me to study for the first time ever (which is more than I ever have before, of course).
Also, I've been having terrible headaches on the left side of my head for the last few months. It's possible it involves a birthmark, and so I should finally be getting that checked early Friday morning. If it's not the birthmark, it could possibly be a sinus thing. I hope it's nothing serious, because for the first time ever I have something going for me and I don't want to lose that. Especially since my asshole parents are so reluctant about taking me to any doctor (as they've always been).

I hope I can keep this oddly assembled mass of events together...

Strange times...