Wednesday Oct 11, 2006

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I butchered my hair.

It was getting.....foppish, is what I'd say. So I decided to cut it. And then I decided to play around with different lengths.

And things went downhill from there.

No more long, messy, sexy hair. Just.....lameness.

If I can find some batteries, I may post a picture later.

Sunday Oct 08, 2006

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Progress Report:

I'm still quite possibly in love with someone I shouldn't be in love with (and never see).

I'm broke.

I still can't find work.

I'm out of gas.

I'm going to try and hang out with some of the SG Detroit people this week.

I'm also going to get my shroomery off the ground.

I see myself in a new and interesting light.
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robotlola:
cyphen some gas, come to tv tuesday

what's a shroomery?
agentofoblivion:
You should seriously come out for our friday night gathering (see the sg detroit group) even if you cant do dinner, it will be some casual hanging out and a good chance to meet alot of the more relaxed, awesome and pleasant group members, hang out and just have fun. Think about it, and let either me or lolizzo know and we can get ya directions and all that, maybe even arrange carpooling depending, though its not really all that far.

Sunday Oct 01, 2006

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We'll build a fortress to the sky, obscured by green leaves.

With strange hats and accents, we'll be ferocious the way no one on this block has known before.

We'll cause general mayhem, do slightly stupid things, but through it all we'll still come out as lovable scamps.

Do boys ever really grow up? It feels infinite, the strange project cheered on by others. As...
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ladylovelybrit:
I don't know if you wrote it, or it was written by another, but it truly was lovely......thank-you

Wednesday Sep 27, 2006

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I take it back.

I feel anxious, and manic at the same time, and it's like my body is shredding itself apart.

I'm losing those last few friends of mine.


I've got nothing going socially. I can't stand it. It's really killing me, the way it's always been.

The mania's fleeting, too. It normally lasts a couple hours before I'm suffering a nervous breakdown again....
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erinachan:
You know I get the exact same way all the time. it sucks so bad and it feels like nobody gives a shit but i think the worst part of it is that no matter what anybody says it's not going to be exactly what you want to hear. I'm sooo sorry you're feeling like that! I can't really give any advice cause I still suffer from the same stuff with not much improvement but if you ever need to vent, let me know!
ladylovelybrit:
hugs......im right there with you...

Wednesday Sep 27, 2006

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For some reason, I feel fantastic today.

I just powered through the two interviews for a stockboy position at Target (did really well with the first one, the second one is a bit sketchy), then drove over to Blockbuster (where I'd rather work) and had a friendly conversation with the guy who turned out to be the hiring manager.

Awesome.

Hopefully I get the Blockbuster...
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Monday Sep 25, 2006

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Looks like I had the right idea in my last lengthy post (an quickly-sketched essay about digital content delivery, rights management, and home theater convergence).

From IMDB:


Amazon May Join TiVo To Bring Downloaded Movies to TV Sets
Amazon may ally itself with TiVo to deliver movies, downloaded from the Internet, to TV sets, the New York Post reported today (Monday), citing two sources familiar...
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robotlola:
great scenery indeed. nature at its finest.
vampiress:
Hey thanks for the sweet comments in the IBTC 'show off your IBTC' thread. kiss

Saturday Sep 23, 2006

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I'm trying to get back into the habbit of writing long-winded opinion pieces about banal topics again. So please excuse my slightly unfocused essay about digital content distribution and rights management.

The real point of this is to get my writing skills back to where they were before I took a long vacation to drug use and thought-crippling depression (although it was often equally thought-provoking)....
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Friday Sep 15, 2006

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So, humor is acceptance, and that's what we all want...

Is that why we identify with humor?

And if I could think this well when I was depressed, was it because I was straining my brain so hard to understand my isolation?

All issues are acceptance issues, including all sexual issues?

Is perfection something we strive for due to acceptance needs? We want to be...
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Sunday Sep 10, 2006

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I hate Melatonin.

It beat my insomnia, but it makes me extremely mood-swingy.
lowlife:
Melotonin rocks :d

Thursday Sep 07, 2006

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I feel like shit.

My well of friends finally dried up, and I literally have no one now. As a socially anxious recovering depressive, I'm not even interested in the output required from me to actually meet new people, and even if I was willing I don't know where to look. I met everyone I ever met through school or the internet, so I guess...
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patscuteass:
That really sucks man. I'm hoping you pull through this as your last bunch of entries have really depressed the shit out of me just by reading them. I'd say all that other stuff like how things will get better and all that but it's really just bullshit and I honestly don't know if it gest better. I'm hoping it does thought and that's all I have to offer really.
xtrememeow:
I know how you feel I try to talk to all my old friends from school but none of them ever seem intrested in talking about anything and so i feel like i only have the 2 friends i have actually made in the three years i've been out of school and thats it and only having 2 people to talk to leaves you alone alot of the time and it sucks

Saturday Sep 02, 2006

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