I complain constantly about other people but I really really need to think about what I'm doing.
The sad thing about me at least compared to other people who are dark and miserable is that I sort of enjoy it. I have a bit of a sadist tendency in me I suppose. The idea came into my head last night when I was laying in...
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The sad thing about me at least compared to other people who are dark and miserable is that I sort of enjoy it. I have a bit of a sadist tendency in me I suppose. The idea came into my head last night when I was laying in...
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Really life is nothing but a dream that I can't wake up from. I feel like I'm stuck underneath the ice looking through unable to break free and I'm just going to drown.
I can't help but look at everyone with contempt... I really don't like people much but it's more me than them. I hate that they can just be and I can't. Everyone...
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I can't help but look at everyone with contempt... I really don't like people much but it's more me than them. I hate that they can just be and I can't. Everyone...
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bahbahblacksheep:
[insert appropriate words of encouragement here because i cannot. i could say hugs and shit but i will not.]
everyone here is content with nothing. they depress me. i see their life as a big nothing and a let down, yet they seem happy with what they have and how they live. perhaps i am the wrong one but i cannot understand it. i have been wondering if i make myself miserable, and perhaps it is not even others that i dislike but myself, and maybe i want company in my misery, but i do not understand how people can be happy when they are so stupid. ignorance is bliss though is it not. i want to be ignorant as well.
everyone here is content with nothing. they depress me. i see their life as a big nothing and a let down, yet they seem happy with what they have and how they live. perhaps i am the wrong one but i cannot understand it. i have been wondering if i make myself miserable, and perhaps it is not even others that i dislike but myself, and maybe i want company in my misery, but i do not understand how people can be happy when they are so stupid. ignorance is bliss though is it not. i want to be ignorant as well.
Everything looks perfect from far away.
All I do is sigh all the time anymore... I wake up I sigh, I go to school I sigh, I go to work I sigh, I go home I sigh, and I go to bed and I sigh. Can I say that I'm not content or impressed with the current state of things. Even when I go out...
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All I do is sigh all the time anymore... I wake up I sigh, I go to school I sigh, I go to work I sigh, I go home I sigh, and I go to bed and I sigh. Can I say that I'm not content or impressed with the current state of things. Even when I go out...
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bahbahblacksheep:
well i'll just do the drinking for you.
bahbahblacksheep:
oohh, what?
bahbahblacksheep:
oohh, what?
man that posted twice and i only clicked once... no way to delete. bah.
[Edited on Nov 02, 2005 1:10AM]
man that posted twice and i only clicked once... no way to delete. bah.
[Edited on Nov 02, 2005 1:10AM]
Right now the house is just full of drama... I feel like I'm a kid again well except for the cops and the black eyes. My roommates are fighting because Tony was being the drunken fool last night when we went downtown. After much drinking he though guys where trying to grab Tatum so he wanted to kick someones ass. Up to that point the...
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Right now I'm just tired of myself. I wish I could be someone else at times not cause I hate who I am just because I know others don't care who I am. That should matter well for me it does suppose that's hard for people to understand. I've always been the unwanted isolated thrown away overlooked person. It sure doesn't help one's selfesteem to...
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bahbahblacksheep:
holy shit, you weren't even around today. you ok? am i being annoying? i'm not trying to be. i'm also not trying to be overly cheesy and i hope my previous comment wasn't. i'll just say i hate you and make it less cheeseified.
blueleftshoe:
I was around a bit yesterday you just weren't when I was. I just went to be early last night in hopes catching up on some more sleep would improve my mood when all it's done is make me sleep more.
Thanks for caring though steph I know you always have you're a great friend better than most no make that all of the friends I know personally.
Thanks for caring though steph I know you always have you're a great friend better than most no make that all of the friends I know personally.
Stupid stupid stupid crushes... you always get them on people you know nothing will come back from. The unattainable are much more interesting. All I end up with is people I could really care less about. I'm not even get laid out of any of this making out I've been doing lately. The closest I got was a pretty bad blow job... that's my life...
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bahbahblacksheep:
god that's so true. the biggest love of my life was s----- and i think most of it was because he was so unattainable. he got to know me very well, but never let me know him all that much, so he retained his mystery and that intrigued me. isn't that pathetic... what i consider my greatest love i don't even know. it was just an obsession. people you don't know are easy to fall in love with, indeed.
Where have all the interesting people gone off to?
No where. I'm right here.
Where have all the interesting people gone off to?
No where. I'm right here.
madness slowly consumes my mind. 
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blueleftshoe:
no I was just pissed now I'm just well insane.. any great person though had a bit of insanity in them.
bahbahblacksheep:
that's right. that's why both of us are so messed up. 
I really really do hate early mornings. Why must the start so soon when it's still dark out? I don't like this one bit. I have to do something about all the damn pop ups I been getting as well. It's so freakin' annoying.
The weekends never last as long as I think they should.
The weekends never last as long as I think they should.
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bahbahblacksheep:
Main Entry: 1joke
Pronunciation: 'jOk
Function: noun
Etymology: Latin jocus; perhaps akin to Old High German gehan to say, Sanskrit yAcati he asks
1 a : something said or done to provoke laughter; especially : a brief oral narrative with a climactic humorous twist b (1) : the humorous or ridiculous element in something (2) : an instance of jesting : KIDDING <can't take a joke> c : PRACTICAL JOKE d : LAUGHINGSTOCK
2 : something not to be taken seriously : a trifling matter <consider his skiing a joke -- Harold Callender> -- often used in negative construction <it is no joke to be lost in the desert>
I was kidding, hence the sitcking out of the tongue.
Pronunciation: 'jOk
Function: noun
Etymology: Latin jocus; perhaps akin to Old High German gehan to say, Sanskrit yAcati he asks
1 a : something said or done to provoke laughter; especially : a brief oral narrative with a climactic humorous twist b (1) : the humorous or ridiculous element in something (2) : an instance of jesting : KIDDING <can't take a joke> c : PRACTICAL JOKE d : LAUGHINGSTOCK
2 : something not to be taken seriously : a trifling matter <consider his skiing a joke -- Harold Callender> -- often used in negative construction <it is no joke to be lost in the desert>
I was kidding, hence the sitcking out of the tongue.
blueleftshoe:
I know you were kidding 
Here I am at midnight on a saturday night sippin' on some baha mountain dew, watchin shaun of the dead, thinkin about makin another mixed cd. Sad pathetic not all that great at all I don't mind being in I just wish someone was in with me. Tatum is here but hiding in her bedroom like always... i thought having roommates would mean a bit...
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pinecrest:
If its any consolation i spent my saterday night watching the series Undeclared and drinkin cherry coke.
Im in college.. ugh. Who knew Kent was a suitcase campus, oh wait.. me. Anyways.. mmm, say hi some time.
Im in college.. ugh. Who knew Kent was a suitcase campus, oh wait.. me. Anyways.. mmm, say hi some time.
pinecrest:
It was a show by the creater of freaks and geeks about like 6 college kids doing things that college kids supposedly doo. It was really funny, but i dont think it met the prime time criteria..
But after 18 episodes that i just watched i wish there was a second season..
Dorm life is alright, the food is horible.. atleast your rarely REALLY alone
But after 18 episodes that i just watched i wish there was a second season..
Dorm life is alright, the food is horible.. atleast your rarely REALLY alone
i'm dead too.