blueleftshoe

Well I'm single now again. In the back of my mind I didn't really think we'd break-up even though we had discussed it a few times I just didn't see it as a real possibility I guess I was just fooling myself. Really I didn't think if people love each other that a relationship wouldn't work out but I guess other factors play a role and when people want two different things out of life then eventually it gets in the way. I haven't felt overly sad about the whole thing I mean there is a sad feeling in my heart at the moment but I don't feel overwhelmed by like I have before but it doesn't feel all that real yet either.

I'm thinking of calling off today I haven't decided yet I have an hour to figure that out. I figured maybe I'd go see The Wrestler it opens up today. Tonight Beth was going up to Peabody's to go see Mandy's band User Sets Mode and she has free tickets I don't know if I feel like doing that or not I'm not much in the mood for making decisions. I sort of just feel like sitting around doing nothing.