blueleftshoe

This has been a shitty week. This morning I got a message from my dad that my grandma had a heart attack last night. I guess she has to have a bi-pass or whatever they call it. I went up there to see her today she really wasn't looking all that great hospitals just creep me out. My grandpa looked pretty worn and tired I can't imagine what he's going through they've been together 50 years. They were pretty much like parents to me growing up I often spent weekends and summers with them then I lived my last two years of high school at their house. They were always around for me when there really wasn't anyone else. It's hard to see someone you really love in such a crappy state.

Sunday my car engine pretty much died while I was driving to my mum's.. i'm in the process of finding a few car. Right now I have some focus for a dealer my brother in law knows but they want too much for it. Right now with shit ass credit it's going to be hard to find anything. I have to do that I have to find somewhere to live I have to deal with all of these things.

It's times like these it would be nice to have someone to come home to or just someone to be a support.