blueleftshoe

Life?

I'm not a person that deals well with comfort I can't stand when things are the same I need change I thrive on change. It's what make my blood pump I have to have it or I die I'm not someone who can stand in one spot forever and be content with that. I always need more I'll never be content with one place or one person because what that brings is relying on something else and if life has taught me anything it's that you can only rely on one thing and that's yourself.

That's what I'm excited I'm seeing I'm at that fork in the road where change is coming and I can make the biggest fucking change ever change is always possible instead of growing moody and disenchanted with whatever the fuck is around you the ability to wipe it all clear is there. So that's what I'm doing.. i'm going to find somewhere that i can live for a few months then I'm off to the west coast and whatever it may hold for a dumb fickle fucker like myself I can't wait. I need something really different something that i have no clue about and well the other side of the continent should do it for me. I"m excited because i want to take charge and I really want to live which hasn't really been something i've felt for a long time. For a while I was thinking I needed love I needed someone to be with to validate my being... well i realized I'm probably not someone that is good to be with I am pretty selfish for the most part.