blueleftshoe

I always thought the older I got the more sane I would become like somehow it would infiltrate my head leaving all the oddiness behind. I always figured that's what happens as a kid most adults seems to have there heads going pretty straight or at least gave the impression so I thought this is what would happen to me. I'd be sitting at home watching Friends eating potato skins sippin' a Fresca in complete contentment until I retired I'd go to florida or buy a mobile home live out my dying days with some weathered old woman who I'd dated since my late teens and life would just be grand. Instead my mind seems to just be moving further and further away the most comfortable I get in my own skin the more I want to explore the outer regions that often go unseen I guess I come from an older guild like Lewis and Clark I want to find new places then keep going on from there. I find it less important by the day if I make sense to people or entertain or even am paid attention to. I'm seeing things different everyday it amuses me the world is only amusing for me when it makes no sense.

Last night I was in some bar stuck with a bunch of guys with the same hair cut because Gabrielle wanted to go to Ray's place (a.k.a the frat bar) I know it's only because she was hoping to run into a certain someone. I hate that place though and I detest the frat boy type ... how do people exist like that. I had a bit to drink so I kept yelling out I'm in frat boy hell and would make snide remarks about people hopefully I didn't get to loud oh well no one said anything. I don't know what's wrong with this world anymore how are people such as this allowed thrive. Oh well the night was cool for the most part except when Heather started to break down I guess she's upset her mom is in rehab.

I can't wait to go to the zoo Amanda said she'd go with me so she better. I haven't seen her since well fuck Denny's ... damn i'm hungry.