blueleftshoe

It's just been a really long day. For the most part it was a great day but I"m just worn out along with feeling a little down. I took the day off and went to the film festival which was great I hung out with Gabrielle most of the day at Tower City and ate a shit load of candy. Tonight was a bit of a bummer though afterwards she wanted to meet her friend amy to go for a few drinks in Kent. Really I wasn't in the mood but I've been trying to be a good friend so I went. I should of just left the night as it was but yeah of course why would I? It's stupid for me to get bummed out but while sitting outside with them while they smoked I saw Tori. I did a quick spin I don't know if I was spotted or not who knows I don't even know why I spun like I did. It was really the first time I've seen her since I kind of got blew off by her well since she just stopped hanging out with me. I do still chat a bit online once in a while but that's it. The whole thing just was ugh it put me a bummed mood even though it shouldn't but yeah I liked the girl what are you going to do i'm not going to pretend it doesn't bother me a bit. Then Gabrielle ended up drinking too much and started whining about her breakup which I've been there to listen to a lot but tonight I wasn't in the mood especially since when I try to talk I just get cut off. Plus Amy was arguing with her boyfriend on the phone.. he's sort of jealous of me which well I don't blame him Amy seems to flirt a bit too much with me and of course I'm just a big flirt with everyone I try not to be but if someone flirts I flirt back. They have a screwed up relationship and I just try to avoid them if I can or at least avoid the wrestling and hitting Amy always seems to try to intiate with me.. fuck I like rough housing but I don't want to step on anyones toes or cause drama that's not my thing. I don't want to take anyones girl and well their house was really gross that's a big turn off.

I'd like to hang out with Lisa but trying to get a time where she can come over is about impossible. I'd just like some nice normal relationship yeah I said it I just want a you know relationship I haven't had a good normal one in many many years it would be nice for a bit.