blueleftshoe

Sometimes I really amuse myself. Yesterday before work I decide to go to Giant Eagle to get some crap to eat at work as I've been too busy to go get food. Anyways while there I notice the condom isle right near the front and it dawns on me that I'll probably be needing this soon or at the very least it's something good to keep on hand you never know why you'll need them. Since they have the self check out there I thought score... I always feel awkward buying them from someone. I guess I should be mature enough to do that but it still makes me feel weird especially when it's some old lady or really any lady checking you out. Anyways I make my purchases and leave but as I'm going out the door the alarm decides to go out. This is always one of my biggest fears that the alarm will go off when leaving. I was thinking to myself should I just book it and get the hell out or would I be chased down ending up getting shot down in a hail of bullets or have a chasing with cops down the highway. Anyways I just decided to look at the nearest clerk and some bald head old lady comes to me and i'm thinking oh god don't look in the bag. Instead she sees that I'm wearing my badge for work and tells me it was probably that and I said oh yeah that's my work badge and just hurry up to get my butt out of there. I did get guacamole pringles they're pretty good I left them at work so i guess that's something to look forward to.

Lisa is turning out to be pretty cool but at the same time I can't help have these stupid thoughts in my head well mainly regarding Tori. She still speaks to me occassionally online really I just tend to try not to talk to her unless she does me. I still feel though if she started to want to hang out again I probably would too which is crazy stupid. Like always it seems that the person that doesn't want you seems more appealling if just for that fact hell I don't even know that we have that much in common. In a way I even feel a bit guilty for talking to someone else now which I know I shouldn't. Well I'm just overthinking it all like always I shouldn't even be trying to stick with one girl I always do that I should just go out and date a bunch or at least that's what I always hear people say. Sometimes I think I have a tendency to just go for it because it's easier ending with people that don't match well with me. My self esteem is getting higher though and I"m getting better at meeting new people confidence does make all the difference it seems. No one wants a mopey crybaby.