blueleftshoe

I think the whole taking things slow is a lot harder than I realized. I never really made a real effort to do that with someone before so I'm thinking i'm not use to it especially when I like someone. Really I don't even think it's seeing her constantly or having things go further rather just the feeling of wonder if this person actually likes and if this is going anywhere. At times I tend to doubt a lot I don't have the most trust in others and I realize this perhaps it was the cause of some things failing in the past so I'm just doing my best to be mature about this trying to overcome some of these feelings. I think I just need to get out more and I'm feeling a lot better.

I don't know why I'm feeling this we've talked pretty much everynight online even if it is via AIM which I would prefer anyways I'm not a phone person. I guess since I haven't dated anyone in a while it's just awkward for me to get use to something like this. Usually I'm use to someone going all weirdo falling for you and getting tired of the constant attention now it's sort of the opposite. I don't want to dwell on it too long I just wanted to sort out a few thoughts let out a few insecurities I'm having then just move on. It's funny I keep saying to myself don't screw this up don't screw this up.. as guys are often blamed for screwing things I know I've had a few relationships terminate for some stupid reason not to say this is a relationship yet but yeah I don't know.

I'm going to go to borders if I can ever get my stupid printer to work I don't know why it wants to be like this sometimes. I haven't read a book in nearly a month which isn't a good thing for me I've just been wasting my time doing other things and don't have as much time at work to do it anymore.

For some reason I really like Halsey