blueleftshoe

My friend Beth is having a party and I told I'd go.. I'm feeling anxiety though. Fuck why can't I just be around people like normal human beings without freaking the fuck out. I'm sure it will be fine but I don't want to hear people ask why I'm quiet or hear comments about it.. it's annoying. Fuck I don't talk to anyone and everyone that's me that's how I function. God no one is even saying anything to me and I'm already getting pissy about but I guess I've heard it too many times. Oh well I should get going I have to pick up something to drink then I'm going over there ugh... she said anytime after 8 so I have to figure this correctly because you never want to show too early or too late you got to sort of find that just right perfect time to show up well at least that's what flows through my brain. I over think these things.. fuck I over think every fucking thing imaginable. I would do much better if I just lived in my own cave away from humanity.