Everything looks perfect from far away.
All I do is sigh all the time anymore... I wake up I sigh, I go to school I sigh, I go to work I sigh, I go home I sigh, and I go to bed and I sigh. Can I say that I'm not content or impressed with the current state of things. Even when I go out and do thing or people well it just doesn't hold any real bolt of excitment for me. At the moment it seems nice but afterwards I'm just well were I was before it doesn't change me for the good or bad.
Everytime I feel I'm getting back over my funk I kind of realize I never really left it. I'm even getting sick of drinking it's not even like I feel intoxicated anymore I just feel a bunch of nothing so that mode of escapism is about shot for me.
I knew what I wanted to be a long time ago but I realized I would never get that and now I don't even know how to be that person if I wanted to.
I dont even feel like writing this entry but I'll leave it up for now.
All I do is sigh all the time anymore... I wake up I sigh, I go to school I sigh, I go to work I sigh, I go home I sigh, and I go to bed and I sigh. Can I say that I'm not content or impressed with the current state of things. Even when I go out and do thing or people well it just doesn't hold any real bolt of excitment for me. At the moment it seems nice but afterwards I'm just well were I was before it doesn't change me for the good or bad.
Everytime I feel I'm getting back over my funk I kind of realize I never really left it. I'm even getting sick of drinking it's not even like I feel intoxicated anymore I just feel a bunch of nothing so that mode of escapism is about shot for me.
I knew what I wanted to be a long time ago but I realized I would never get that and now I don't even know how to be that person if I wanted to.
I dont even feel like writing this entry but I'll leave it up for now.
bahbahblacksheep:
well i'll just do the drinking for you.