blueleftshoe

You're old? There's no help for me, then!

Happy birthday, mr blueleftshoe.

ha yeah but with age comes wisdom. thanks for the happy birthday I appreciate it.

ahh. will your landlord replace it?

oh but canada is getting warmer. it's called global warming. :p actually, I just read an article about inuits buying air conditioners. i'm all for some canada.

i'll be in the mid-west until liyah graduates. i think if i can afford naperville i'll move there.

ha, the Goonies. good movie.

i dont know our landlord is a lazy bum takes forever to do anything I'll jsut get a fan i guess

haha yeah i'm such a goof ball I'm making progress.

you're doing a lot better than most people would be, you know?
you're doing great.

& nice to meet you too.

good.

yep

Dolphin psychology would be interesting they are suppose to be really intelligent animals. I think a lot of time people get the wrong idea when you meantion any form of animal psychology I have to admit I had a different impression of it before realizing what it is.

Well I haven't seen any good concerts in a while so I deserved it. Actually the flaming lips and midlake where the only bands that really impressed me the others were just alright.

i haven't been to a concert since 2002. i deserve something good too.

i can't believe sonic youth wasn't impressive.

the only other person i told about the animal psychology laughed at me. it wasn't in a harsh way, but an immediate reaction.

I wish that I could say that puking isn't that bad. I find it to be horrible.

Of course the fear and dread are the worst things, I didn't mean to imply that they aren't. The physical things are a bit scary to me, though.

I blame my parents for much and always will. They owe me for being such shits and I'll never get over their crap until they sincerely apologize and take responsibility for what they have done to all of their children. That may not be how most deal with shit, but it's what I need to do for myself at this point in time. I've tried taking the higher road and not focusing the blame on my parents, but I need to for a bit for my own sanity.

Yeah each person needs to take the path they find works best for them. For me I found it best to not focus on the anger that I hold inside towards people I felt turned me towards a certain direction but rather turn myself towards a directions that I feel works better for me. It's not so much forgiving or forgeting it's more about trying to workin a more postive state... I don't know that it's either good nor bad. It's not an judgement on how others want to deal with things it's just how I want to deal with things.

Yeah I suppose being sick is pretty bad. I suppose I was just trying to say for me physical symptoms while bad arent the things that bother me the most it's the mental or the consequences of my actions as a result of the anxiety that bothers me the most.

there was no meaning. i decided to draw a penis, then decided it should be a big black one, and then decided to make it bent to top it off.

i hate bent penises. they go in the wrong direction.

i activated my account again so i could read your stuff. i deleted my other friends and set everything to friends only. i just don't want people i don't know bugging me. i don't know if i'll post here anymore, well, unless i want to blog and i only want you to read it since myspace doesn't have a filter and livejournal just blows. i know i'm not looking at the girls on here anymore and i won't be renewing. ha, i basically paid money to read your blogs. you should be flattered. funny thing is most of your shit is public so really i'm only paying to comment. well, it's not like these bitches refund money when someone cancels anyhow.

anyway, like i said in my other message, i'm just tired of everything revolving around how a person looks and this place really plays up to that.

yeah well i am flattered. I was just wondering what happened to you I can understand why you'd be unhappy with things.

I dont like pussies with really long hair. As far as him being skinny.. I put the food out there and let him eat what he wants. I guess he wants to be like me who knows.

I do like big noses.

Oh, I didn't find him skinny, just not fat. I like those fat pussies. I like the smashed face kind too, and the ones with long hair.

My cat, Buffy, turned out to be a boy. ha. He's a long hair and he's getting so damn fat. I had to give him to my little brother when I moved though.

i don't either mostly but then i find something simple and it's not so bad.

i found a good thinking spot here finally. i read a good book. life is alright right now simply because of those things.

yeah, i was just thinking that what i said above may seem smug like and i didn't mean it that way. i just meant that, for myself, i never pay enough attention to the little things, but when i do and i really take time to enjoy them things seem a little better.