bluefreak

well after a night of being higher the nigh and drunker then drunk im still alive and as fun and crazy as ever but im depressed. atleast im alive though i honestly didnt think id make it through the night but i did somehow. with the way things are going though i dont think ill be sober and shit for long. knowing me ill probly...
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the lakes and rivers of the world run orange tonight cuz the carrots are crying for tomorrow is harvest day. the carrots have a last request EAT BEEF!!!

ok i was on some wonderful drugs when i came up with that story

never trust a man in uniform...they are either cops or they are assholes mystepdad is BOTH.
if anyone would like to kill him for me i will gladly pay you in some way or another but please make sure he is on the job cuz then i get alot of money .

i went for a long walk today and it didnt help much but i did get a new cat. it was stuck under a branch down by the lake near my house and i got it out and the damn cat followed me home and well i just had to keep the little guy. i named him scooter..why i havent a clue but thats his...
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what could be better then a thunderstorm and a sad song to listen to? this song is by far one of the best i have heard in a long time and it made me cry too the first time i heard it but thats probly cuz it is a GORGEOUS song and it has alot to deal with my current situation.

My Immortal by Evanescence...
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they say life sucks and then you die well i tell you my life sucks. i didnt think it would suck this much but it does. i hate to write but unfortunatly when your upset it comes soooo easily.

Suffer

another day inside my world locked away in the shadows. alone, forever alone with just my thoughts. my family never notices my pain all they...
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damn i was stupid lastnight *L*. i was babysitting and the kids i was watching were asleep the whole time so i figured id go raid the fridge and i found a case of bracadi silvers and 2 cases of tripple blacks . how could i say no? *LOL* so i was fucked up lastnight and then i went home and i was sooooo wasted...
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yet again im depressed and nothing helps im smokeing too much and if nothing gets any better m gonna just fuck off for awhile . i did talk to a friend the other night and that was nice but then things went to shit again and i went right back o being depressed and pissed off....i dont think my heart can take this much stress...
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mommy make the thingy stop ringing.
god damn i hate it when people call me all hours of the day and night its giving me sleep deprevation .
and they have to call me about stupid things too i mean god i dont know why your ex is being an ass my only guess is its cuz he is a man and men just suck...
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*sighs* it hasnt been a very good week . i fractured my knuckles again and my family is driving me absolutly insane and now im stuck babysitting tonight and i really dont want to but i have to. thank god i went to the hardware store today and stocked up on duct tape so if thoses kid make me crazy they are getting their asses...
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ok so yeah fratured knuckles really hurt but ill live i think. i absolutly hate this fucking hot weather and its not even summer yet...thank god noone is home and i can walk around the house ins a skimpy shirt and boxers without my stepdad perving out and stareing *cringes* i mean ewwww a 45 year old man stareing and getting a woody YUCK .....
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oh i love fighting with ppl i really do. fucking ppl need to just leave me the fuck alone at home and at work. i mean jebus if i look like im about to hit you and the slit your throat then back off and let me be. maybe i should just take off for awhile and say fuck you to everyone. nah ill just...
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