Ok I feel like I am a pathetic loser now and it has nothing to do with valentines day. 
I have spent several hours once again browsing through journals posting a few comments and jumping from one thread to another.
So I jumped to someone's webpage promoting his local band I can honestly say I like most local music here, So I was trying to get a feel for what band would be like and started reading his web log/ journal. After about 20 minutes I felt bad for the guy as an independent band and working a day job and trying to promote himself and I could sympathize with some of his love sickness and was thinking of maybe catching his upcoming show, and then if I dug it to bring several of my friends to his next gig.
Then I read an entry about how he was castrated by some SG' members with lIke "over 2000 posts" for bringing up a new thread that had been beaten to death ages ago! He felt that the people berating him who had >2000 posts were such losers. I thought first wow I may become one of these losers! I spend enough time here. I wont get into here how I disagree with such newbie bashing.
But I felt awful like yeah "you're right" this meandering is as mindless as when I am in vidoe store and how I have to read the back of every new realease movie case if I havent seen read it before. I have been told it should not take >30 minutes to pick out a movie NO MATTER WHAT!
and then I thought about the hours, and days spent in a used book store or the library.
(Lateley I have been trying really hard to stay away from barnes and nobles but their cushy chairs are so ... cushy dammit! )
So I am rethinking the whole amount of time I spend on this web site and on the internet. I should be doing something productive! Then I thought well the guy was wrting in his journal like his diary and he wrote what he felt but it wasnt meant to label me.
So I am undecided about whether this community can become something legit and meaningful for me to participate in. If it can become more so than "cool book dude or nice pic and Gee I am sorry about your loss." I guess I crave human contact not just cyber contact. well signing off for now...
its now 3 AM have good dreams all I sure hope mine are.
last words of wisdom for today from the "dot dot dot" thread
"sometimes drowing is as close you can get to an orgasm"
I have spent several hours once again browsing through journals posting a few comments and jumping from one thread to another.
So I jumped to someone's webpage promoting his local band I can honestly say I like most local music here, So I was trying to get a feel for what band would be like and started reading his web log/ journal. After about 20 minutes I felt bad for the guy as an independent band and working a day job and trying to promote himself and I could sympathize with some of his love sickness and was thinking of maybe catching his upcoming show, and then if I dug it to bring several of my friends to his next gig.
Then I read an entry about how he was castrated by some SG' members with lIke "over 2000 posts" for bringing up a new thread that had been beaten to death ages ago! He felt that the people berating him who had >2000 posts were such losers. I thought first wow I may become one of these losers! I spend enough time here. I wont get into here how I disagree with such newbie bashing.
But I felt awful like yeah "you're right" this meandering is as mindless as when I am in vidoe store and how I have to read the back of every new realease movie case if I havent seen read it before. I have been told it should not take >30 minutes to pick out a movie NO MATTER WHAT!
and then I thought about the hours, and days spent in a used book store or the library.
(Lateley I have been trying really hard to stay away from barnes and nobles but their cushy chairs are so ... cushy dammit! )
So I am rethinking the whole amount of time I spend on this web site and on the internet. I should be doing something productive! Then I thought well the guy was wrting in his journal like his diary and he wrote what he felt but it wasnt meant to label me.
So I am undecided about whether this community can become something legit and meaningful for me to participate in. If it can become more so than "cool book dude or nice pic and Gee I am sorry about your loss." I guess I crave human contact not just cyber contact. well signing off for now...
its now 3 AM have good dreams all I sure hope mine are.
last words of wisdom for today from the "dot dot dot" thread
"sometimes drowing is as close you can get to an orgasm"
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Tease me with The Smiths lyrics. I love it.