blossy

You know, I mean I am not all that active, I make a post here, a post there I go into the chat I hang out ya know I like people hence why I am here, for the community of it all. I have a rant though. I do not conform to the "normal standards fo beauty." I am a big woman in a world obsessed with being thin. I've been there, done that killed myself (literally) over it and I was thin before then so no I was not a fat girl who was dying to be thin. I was a thin girl who died because of her obsession; obviously it was a temporary state of death in that they brought me back and I am here. Anyway, now comes my rantings of ranty-ness because for heaven's sake I have tried as hard as I can to just let it go. Everyone likes attention, we post pictures of ourselves or of certain attributes all over this site and of course I post pictures of myself, like ya do. I have hit a wall though, a wall where I am noticing that that people go out of their way to speak with or about are the people who get naked and just post naked pictures of themselves whether they are SG's or just regular ol' members. It appears as if, if you are a member and if you are someone who has naked pictures out there for everyone to see then you matter more than the members who do not post fully naked pictures of themselves. This bothers me quite a bit. Everyone is important, everyone is deserving of being looked at equally, I think is what it is. I also notice the clique'ishness of some of the groups I am in. The ones I have just joined I don't mind because it is a community that has been there before I got there and there are friendships formed and as a newcomer I need a little bit of time before people become comfortable with me or try to get to know me. That is why I post like a fiend on things when I first show up, expose myself and open a discussion. It bothers me more that it has happened in groups that I have been members of for a long, long time and still I am not naked (or not naked enough) therefore I am unimportant and what I have to say matters less than the person who gets naked.

If this rant is offensive that's ok, you can post whatever you like about it because well, I kinda value your opinion. I am not here just because there are naked girls here (well I mean BIG pull) I am here because I like the community however it would appear that I need to spiff myself up before I get all into being worthy of being here (by spiff up I mean get in shape and get naked of course)

Sincerely,
Blossom