blossy

I wish my little niece Mallory didn't have to die....but she will...prolly before she is even really born and if not...then right after she is born...I know some people just think of "the baby as a fetus" until "it" is born; but for 4 months we've thought and spoken of nothing but when Mallory is going to be born, and she has been a huge part of our lives. Heck I even knitted a soft comfy blanket and now she won 't even know. I mean, I believe in God I really truly do so I believe that He has a reason for everything but that statement just sounds so fucking LAME right now. It didn't cut it when my dad died suddenly when I was 17 and it doesn't fucking cut it now. The thought of my sister having to carry to term a child who is just going to die anyway...or being induced at 32 weeks when a "norma" baby could sustain life outside the womb just to have the baby die is heartbreaking, even worse is the fact that Mallory could die in the womb and then we won't even get to meet her for that short amount of time that she will be alive. Seriously, honestly....WHAT THE FUCK did my sister ever do that she would be deserving of this situation?!?!?!?