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so I went to tulsa today for a photoshoot and ended up doing some japanese rope bondage on an old creepy medical table, it was pretty bitchin' I've been in a weird mood the last few days, I'm just not in the right place. I'm just not content with my life at the moment, and though moving to portland will be a nice change, I feel my heart is in the wrong place. something or some one here calls to me and wants me in the same place. I wish I could see more clearly, I wish I knew what to do. If I could make myself happy, I know the steps that need be taken but at the price, I wonder. seems I can never get away long enough to enjoy myself, the things that tie me down. I wish I could talk to him and tell him how I feel but I know he would never understand, afterall as long as he's happy it's okay that I'm miserable. I hate this.



I love you all.
xoxo
Grace