blood_drips_slow

wrote at 4:16 am


as i sit in a darken room,
i start to wounder to thy self,
why am i letting my self live to be walked on an hurt,
im at the crossroad's pounding weather to live or die,
no were to go cause even thy satin,
would not open thee gates of soulless hell,


as i hold a broken mirror in thy hands,
only to look into it an seeing no reflection only lost hope,
for thee self not to shield self pride is one's way to say why even try,
for life throw's you many challenge's,
to end this cycle is thy self's medicine to end all endless hope,


would my kids ever really know who there father really was,
would my kids understand how i felt,
or what i might of been going through,
would my kids even care,
who there father really was or what he really was about,


im going to end thy bider grief,
so there for my kids will not have to go through what i have been through,


to break thy bond


this time i will exceed in ending this bider grief an pain i have caused thy self,


only to leave a dark blood stain.




wouder if you can answer this for me:

when you are really in deep thought about ending your life, an people say " i know what you are going through" do they really know or is that just a normal reaction any one say's to some one when they are about to kill them self's. so they can buy time to fined some thing that will snap the person out of thought an put other thoughts in to there head that will make them not want to hurt them self's.

so what im saying is "do they really know how that person really feels" ?