mood: drained
music: Winger - Miles Away
I guess it is time to officially announce it:
I will be moving down to join Spud in Florida sometime in the later part of May. This has not been an easy decision for me, and I think it is adding some to my depression that has been rampant for the last couple months. I have weighed all the angles and here are the main reasons I am going:
1. there seems to be no jobs that I can get into that will get me going in the career direction I would like, or even something i might enjoy. You have to know someone with pull to get in anywhere.
2. any jobs I could get would probably not pay me much more then I am getting now, which is barely enough to get by on. I traded my car because it was cheaper and I couldn't keep putting the maintenance on my credit card.
3. I am sick of living in a room, in a dingy apartment with no living room. I am tired of feeling like I am a kid fresh out of college, even though this is my first supporting myself place... even with two roomies. They are great roomies, don't get me wrong, but I am tired of living with other people. (In some strange way, I don't consider Strio "other people") I want a decent place where I can clean and it looks clean and have people over.
4. I miss my boi with a longing I can feel as a deep, sucking chest wound every minute of the day. I have sunk slowly deeper and deeper into a dark depression that blots out all thoughts of being productive. I got laundry done and changed my sheets on Saturday and thought that a major event. This is all also contributing to the fact that I haven't lifted a pencil or pastel or paintbrush or camera or anything even remotely artistic in a long time because I don't have the room, or the muse, or the drive... blah blah bah
So, though I will miss many people very much, as I feel like I have gotten a good group of solid friends finally built up, I must go. I am unsure how my paretns feel about it. I had to ask them directly to get an opinion. I think they will be glad for me to get out of the big scary city of Boston, but they will miss me. Once we get caught up on bills, we will be back. We are thinking about doing some real estate investing, but that will have to wait for a little while.
I am hoping to get some sort of going away gathering together, but not sure when or where, but I will keep you updated.
Thanx to everyone who has been my friend, and I will be making an effort to see many of you at least once more before I head down.
Melinda
music: Winger - Miles Away
I guess it is time to officially announce it:
I will be moving down to join Spud in Florida sometime in the later part of May. This has not been an easy decision for me, and I think it is adding some to my depression that has been rampant for the last couple months. I have weighed all the angles and here are the main reasons I am going:
1. there seems to be no jobs that I can get into that will get me going in the career direction I would like, or even something i might enjoy. You have to know someone with pull to get in anywhere.
2. any jobs I could get would probably not pay me much more then I am getting now, which is barely enough to get by on. I traded my car because it was cheaper and I couldn't keep putting the maintenance on my credit card.
3. I am sick of living in a room, in a dingy apartment with no living room. I am tired of feeling like I am a kid fresh out of college, even though this is my first supporting myself place... even with two roomies. They are great roomies, don't get me wrong, but I am tired of living with other people. (In some strange way, I don't consider Strio "other people") I want a decent place where I can clean and it looks clean and have people over.
4. I miss my boi with a longing I can feel as a deep, sucking chest wound every minute of the day. I have sunk slowly deeper and deeper into a dark depression that blots out all thoughts of being productive. I got laundry done and changed my sheets on Saturday and thought that a major event. This is all also contributing to the fact that I haven't lifted a pencil or pastel or paintbrush or camera or anything even remotely artistic in a long time because I don't have the room, or the muse, or the drive... blah blah bah
So, though I will miss many people very much, as I feel like I have gotten a good group of solid friends finally built up, I must go. I am unsure how my paretns feel about it. I had to ask them directly to get an opinion. I think they will be glad for me to get out of the big scary city of Boston, but they will miss me. Once we get caught up on bills, we will be back. We are thinking about doing some real estate investing, but that will have to wait for a little while.
I am hoping to get some sort of going away gathering together, but not sure when or where, but I will keep you updated.
Thanx to everyone who has been my friend, and I will be making an effort to see many of you at least once more before I head down.
Melinda
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It would be so cool if you and Strio were able to make it one last time to the SG Boston show in June...the opportunity of fond and bittersweet farewells for you, and another chance to see Strio before he has fewer reasons to make the journey up here.
Wishing that luck, love and happiness surround you.