giant german muscle-babies? what the fuck?
more tattoo work healing. back to the good diet and workout schedule. the weights really help to cleanse my head of the bullshit.
work is dead. a friend of my father who was in vietnam described the experience as hours of boredom followed by seconds of extreme terror. I can't say that's what is going on here, but the hours of boredom are usually followed by moments of panic to finish a job on short deadline. bring on the firefight.
I'm looking forward to the alone-time of writing again. I like being around friends, but I can tend to stagnate if I am around others too much. a lot of people are satisfied without constant achievement. I have to be working on something at all times in order to keep the sanity thing going.
calle:
Shit. We are more alike than I thought. Although I have been on workers comp for almost 2 years... I have been in the process of writting a book and going to school to for forensics; all the while... taking care of my dog, keeping a house and trying to have a social life (not that it warrents being called that). I don't like the feeling of doing "nothing".
Hope that you are having a good evening.
p.s. New poems posted
Hope that you are having a good evening.
p.s. New poems posted
I have had some serious insomnia the last few days. I am constantly re-working plot lines in my head and it doesn't know when to stop. I get so fucking angry when I can't sleep. I am walking on razor-wire ready to explode.
exene:
I haven't been able to sleep well for about 5 days. Maybe the climate is to blame...
calle:
I haven't slept and neither has my dog. I hate not sleeping. It makes me feel violent! And then the next day I'm just fucking retarted!
Sleep Well.
Sleep Well.
fri. steak and wine. sat. more steak, friends and shitloads of beer. man bites dog criterion on dvd. the sopranos season finale tonight. now what do I do on sundays?
exene:
Meatloaf and vodka???
saw the bukowski documentary over the weekend. really good and full of old footage of the dirty old man. I really think that he should go down as one of the greatest american poets. most people think that barfly is a good representation of the man. hardly. genius carries a price and he paid it. tomorrow is my birthday. doesn't really mean much at this...
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wuvmonki:
Happy Birthday!
exene:
Happy belated B-day!! I completely agree with you about Bukowski. I have all of his books. I love each and every one. Where did you see the documentary? I would like to see it sometime...
stalking gangland long beach in my mind. places I haven't been for years. I have a feeling that basing my story in the old neighborhood is going to bring up memories that have been dormant for quite a while. should be trying out a new drummer this weekend. he's been a friend for years, but I haven't understood his choices for his last few bands....
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plotting my new story right now. this is a process I hate, but it is necessary. I have written without good outlines before and ended up dissapointed. going to go see "coffee and cigarettes" on sat. should be good. I'm a big fan of jarmusch. who the fuck am I talking to?
lenore:
Awwe! Thanks hon!! 
(You're talking to me you bastard!)
(You're talking to me you bastard!)
I am so tired of working this job. I always knew that I would work as an artist, but I think that I envisioned something completely different. It kills my creativity and makes it difficult for me to write when I get home and writing is all I'm concerned with now. henry miller spent years bumming off of others in order to not spoil his...
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they should all be shot in the face and kicked down a flight of stairs
will there ever be a weekend when it won't be someone's birthday? I'm not saying I don't appreciate being around friends and celebrating with them, but damn, a few weeks in between would be nice. also, what the fuck is with my expression in that picture? I know I was drunk, but I'm still trying to figure out what's going on with that face. you...
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