blindside

Everything on my mind and nothing to say.

God damn the complications.

Is there anything harder than looking inward? Looking at, admitting to, and trying to accept your own faults and shortcomings?

The last 6 months of my life have been shit.
I put everything into one person. I let everything I was go. And I let that person leaving cripple me.
I have put my life on hold...I've just been spinning my wheels and marking time. I've been drifting and reacting and meandering through life with my eyes down, my guard up, my head in my ass.
What the fuck?
This is not me.

I have no one to blame but me. No one can fix this but me. I am sick of this, of this me. I am tired of reinvinting myself rather than dealing with things.

I don't know what's next. I AM a little scared of the big world out beyond the safe walls I've put up around myself. I AM a little fucked up, but who doesn't have some baggage?

You had you big realization, now what are you gonna do about it, bitch? Own this motherfucker.
"Don't compromise yourself, you are all that you've got"
- Janis Joplin"
"Get busy living, or get busy dying"
- Red "Shawshank Redemption"