blindside

Picked my daughter up today after work. She's getting better about staying awake during the ride homw. So not only did she NOT fall asleep in the car, she stayed up a couple of hours after we got home too. She fell asleep laying on my chest (yes, this is where you go "awwwww") So I feel like I got some good time tinight (considering usually she sleeps most of the way home and never wakes up once we get here).
She's a doll, she's amazing. She's getting so bg, and more adorable every day. She's definately the best thing I've ever done.

Life's just better when I have her.

I'm tired of being down
I'm sick of hurting
I'm over apologizing and doubting and questioning myself

I want to live
I want to scream, to rage, to be large
I do not want to go quietly into that good night
I want to carpe the motherfucking diem, carpe it by the balls!

So who's stopping me? Noone but myself.
I'm better than this, I deserve more. I demand better.

Ok, got that out of my system. I really am ready to be my kind of normal again...haven't been myself for months. I'm ready to have my life back.

OH, trip to Austin SUCKED! Too much time in a car with people I don't like or don't really know...
bleh.
It's not that I'm antisocial, I'm just selectively social

Line that caught my eye in my book:
"I have nothing to offer anyone except my own confusion"
I'm digging the book. It has long stretches of dialog I don't care for, but he'll just really hit home with a single line like that sometimes, and I can't quit reading it.

for my legions of adoring fans..
What I'm currently Reading: "On the Road" Jack Kerouac
What I'm currently Watching: G-String Divas (yay boobies!)
Last good movie I saw: Harold and Kumar (hilarious)
music I'm currently into: talk radio (I know, shoot me) otherwise, whatever ransom stuff appears on my yahoo station, but I dig Spiderbait's Black Betty
Current Odd things I'm a little too hung up on: I want a bowler, or a derby - whatever happened to the good old days when men wore hats?
Current Big Project that may never get started and will probably never get finished: I've acquired the rights to a 41 ford pickup - someday it will be my hotrod plaything .

Ok, that's more than anyone (at least I know ONE person knows this exists, lol) would want to read....