A slow and hard realization of my ridiculous male stubbornness came to pass this eve. WOW not WoW, I feel pretty ashamed and lost..........I deserve only myself and all my tortures. I can only hope she really loves me. Since things were said I wrote her this. With the stupid technology of now it was only a text, email if it was the 90's, a nice classy letter any time period before. Waist-full blog now if you feel as I. But an easy way to let go since not many read these anyways.
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I've been a little hard and emotionally tasking on you this last week.My love, feelings, Emotions and this unspoken/unshown devotion to you should never have been placed second to me.Stubborn to only notice what was happening to myself and blind not once to notice your feelings and needs.To say the things, treat you the way I did, do the things, shut you out and be rude the way i was, your love I do not deserve. Not to realize you needed me emotionally and physically last week is unforgivable.I was very selfish and am ashamed to think you would ever forget about me.I'm lost in my own sorrow and hate of myself.Since the simple moment we first met until these complicated moments of now, you since have always been the one and only woman in my heart.Will be the one and only woman to have my heart until my moments cease.There is nothing ever in this world I could ever want more than is your forgiveness, understanding of me and a simple kiss and I Love You as New Years Night comes to pass.I have and always will love you.Kiss.
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So.....I'm a stupid hopless romatic that is old fashion and usually late with everything. Once again lost alone on another year and only have myself to blame I guess. I can not even count on myself why should anyone else.
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I've been a little hard and emotionally tasking on you this last week.My love, feelings, Emotions and this unspoken/unshown devotion to you should never have been placed second to me.Stubborn to only notice what was happening to myself and blind not once to notice your feelings and needs.To say the things, treat you the way I did, do the things, shut you out and be rude the way i was, your love I do not deserve. Not to realize you needed me emotionally and physically last week is unforgivable.I was very selfish and am ashamed to think you would ever forget about me.I'm lost in my own sorrow and hate of myself.Since the simple moment we first met until these complicated moments of now, you since have always been the one and only woman in my heart.Will be the one and only woman to have my heart until my moments cease.There is nothing ever in this world I could ever want more than is your forgiveness, understanding of me and a simple kiss and I Love You as New Years Night comes to pass.I have and always will love you.Kiss.
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So.....I'm a stupid hopless romatic that is old fashion and usually late with everything. Once again lost alone on another year and only have myself to blame I guess. I can not even count on myself why should anyone else.