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This entry may be staying up for a bit. Not because I dont want to update. Not because I dont want to respond, because I will be writing in all of your journals. I think I should keep this up to me as a reminder for a few days. Or even longer.

You ever have those moments of sheer brilliance? Where you feel like you could solve some huge problem or write some song that will change the way everyone thinks? I used to get that alot when I was younger and it was usually late at night. I would be laying in bed wide awake and not able to sleep. I would then get some idea or song in my head and have to get it out. I would grab some paper and a pen and would not be able to sleep till that song was finished. I would even have the music to it and everything.

Lately there has been a lull in that behavior. The band im in hasnt practiced in a month and that was the only reason I would have considered staying in germany was for the band. Things are not looking good on that part but, who knows>? Maybe we will hit a show soon. Its bad because everyone is a really great group of guys who are so talented. We had 3 songs in the works and its so horrible that we havent recorded.

Past that chapter we move on to my current taste in music and movies. For music lately its been:
1.Placebo
2.Breeders
3.Melt-Bannana
4.Audio Karate
5.A Wilhell Scream


As for the movies its been alot of romance lately. Its quickly overlapsed my taste in the horror genre. Maybe it has to do with changing tastes. Maybe it has to do with things going on in my life. Its not that I lost my sense of reality, its just that it shows me that although romance movies are fake, situations close to these movies may happen. It is possible. I have even thought lately that this world is so crazy just about anything is possible.
The world is falling apart and im sure someday I will find my piece of happiness and love before we all destroy ourselves. Although you cant be so sure of everything, I like to know that bit of hope is inside of me somewhere.

Here is a list of movies that hold a spot in my heart:
1. A Life Less Ordinary
2. Eternal Sunshne Of The Spotless Mind
3.Benny & Joon
4.Crow
5.Grosse Point Blank

So that is whats going on with me as of right now. Dont think Im in a depressed mood because im not. Im just getting older and finding out my place in this crazy world.