hello - for some reason its hard to write - dont know where to start- so this girl seemed to kind of be interested in me - one of the young ones 
and I thought, "wow, shes a really pretty girl, Im flattered that she would be interested in me " - and then I kind of became interested in her - what do you know - so maybe we'll get to hang out more sometime -
its always tricky you know, what to write about on here - because I want to say whats going on, and be honest and all that - but then of course youre usually talking about the local scene and stuff.... so - hmm -
anxiety - Ive been off prozac for almost a month now, and so Ive been kind of trying to notice if my anxiety is going to increase - I dont think it really has been - also, I think that if it does begin to increase, having been on medication for a good year of so gives me some perspective so that I can notice anxieties when they occur and think about coping strategies and stuff - now that I have health care, I may get back on it though - I liked it
I saw this girl that I speak of the other night - and I yelled at this guy that wanted a clove from her -... - Im not sure why - it kind of freaked me out that I did it - I had been drinking, so that probably contributed to it - I was kind of embarassed to have acted like that - I really want to study judo - Ive come close to starting a pretty good handfull of fights over the summer, and the truth is, Ive never been in a fight and will probably get myself hurt if I keep that crap up - I think taking judo would be a good thing for several reasons - to help calm me down, and so that if it ever is neccessary to fight, I could not get hurt -
I think I had my last pot somking session this past weekend too - I made a new friend down at the district - (gothic saturdays bar) and he envited me over to his friends house - I dont know if its because Im older now, or if I just didnt care as much when I was younger, but it reaks havok on my memory - I swear, I couldnt hold my train of thought for more than 5 or 10 minutes .... it sucked .... I was very very high, which was good, thats what I wanted, but my inability to think was really upsetting me - it really deprives the experience of depth.... Plus, doing it really jeapordizes my workmans comp. at work if I get hurt, which is an everpresent possibility when there are 30 forklifts whizing around you at all times -
and Im growing out my hair -
Ive never managed to have long hair -but now, I think that mixed with dreads, strait ironed, and shaved behind the ears, it might work out ....
and, the arm is healing nicely - not too infected, not to not infected- Im contemplating a spiderweb tattoo going from the back of my hand to my elbow - that would be neat - we'll see -
and I thought, "wow, shes a really pretty girl, Im flattered that she would be interested in me " - and then I kind of became interested in her - what do you know - so maybe we'll get to hang out more sometime -
its always tricky you know, what to write about on here - because I want to say whats going on, and be honest and all that - but then of course youre usually talking about the local scene and stuff.... so - hmm -
anxiety - Ive been off prozac for almost a month now, and so Ive been kind of trying to notice if my anxiety is going to increase - I dont think it really has been - also, I think that if it does begin to increase, having been on medication for a good year of so gives me some perspective so that I can notice anxieties when they occur and think about coping strategies and stuff - now that I have health care, I may get back on it though - I liked it
I saw this girl that I speak of the other night - and I yelled at this guy that wanted a clove from her -... - Im not sure why - it kind of freaked me out that I did it - I had been drinking, so that probably contributed to it - I was kind of embarassed to have acted like that - I really want to study judo - Ive come close to starting a pretty good handfull of fights over the summer, and the truth is, Ive never been in a fight and will probably get myself hurt if I keep that crap up - I think taking judo would be a good thing for several reasons - to help calm me down, and so that if it ever is neccessary to fight, I could not get hurt -
I think I had my last pot somking session this past weekend too - I made a new friend down at the district - (gothic saturdays bar) and he envited me over to his friends house - I dont know if its because Im older now, or if I just didnt care as much when I was younger, but it reaks havok on my memory - I swear, I couldnt hold my train of thought for more than 5 or 10 minutes .... it sucked .... I was very very high, which was good, thats what I wanted, but my inability to think was really upsetting me - it really deprives the experience of depth.... Plus, doing it really jeapordizes my workmans comp. at work if I get hurt, which is an everpresent possibility when there are 30 forklifts whizing around you at all times -
and Im growing out my hair -
Ive never managed to have long hair -but now, I think that mixed with dreads, strait ironed, and shaved behind the ears, it might work out ....
and, the arm is healing nicely - not too infected, not to not infected- Im contemplating a spiderweb tattoo going from the back of my hand to my elbow - that would be neat - we'll see -
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