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Lachrymose
lachrymose
lachrymose
day of sadness
day of suffering
day of glowing black rain
never leave -

I saw a black widow in its web. It was missing half of one of its legs. Instead of an insect, it had coccooned a mouse. It was disgusting. It was indescribably grotesque to see the small mammals' furry body half covered, half protruding from the torn,dirty, and chaotic webbing ;its throat swollen shut from the mass of poison that had destroyed it. One of its legs was bound almost to its face. Another was hanging free and had been bitten many times. The tiny paws, normally so beautiful, were raw and scratched from its apparent scrambling at the sidewalk below, on which, the poor thing could not get enough of a grip. It was frightening to see the spider, having committed its uncommonly violent act, quivering, with its long black legs drawn up underneath its torso, exhausted, just under a leaf in the corner of its ... domocile.





and, the obligatory "oh, its all just too much, death, consume me" pic.


I know, I know, I need stretch pants.... Im working on it -

tonight was fun - walking and drinking - the gifts of god -
I smoked craque tonight as well - seriously - I dont think I really got much of a hit - my lips went a little numb, but I didnt blow out any smoke, and didnt really feel it - but I did it with an authentic crack addict- judging by his paranoid scattered talking - he was a trip -
we want to reach our limits, but we dont really want to know our limits - a professor of mine used to say -


oh, does anybody local want to learn French and Russian - I want to start a group - where we could meet once a week to practice - they make good texts and tapes to follow -