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So I went to off broadway and they have all sorts of ben nye makeup - I got black lipstic that is so much better than what I got at hot topic - thanks kaptainkadaver. and white face powder - I got charcoal too, so I can mix it and get a pale grey - its the first time Ive really tried to use powder, hmm, its a little trickey - it looks kind of blotchy, and who knows what will happen to it when I start sweating from walking or dancing - maybe Ill try the oil based makeup for sweatproofness -

when life is but dissapointment, and nothing is amusing

the one wild hunt, for lonliness

is a life, without god, is an end, without love

soulless today, and soulless tomorrow

I want to say something, about the socializing situation, Im not sure how writing in a public journal would help things - maybe I should just talk to a friend or something -
the main thing is, Im sorry if I bothered you L. I dont mean to. I hate feeling like a creep, I try to be a nice and honest person - sometimes though, when I drink, I act dumb....
I still really feel like we should know each other - I wish we could get to know each other -