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I got my paycheck and my account is still negative... fucking wells fargo and their 33$ overdraft charges, and my bad credit so I cant qualify for od protection.... the trap of poverty huh... that blows just a bit - so I went to sell some stuff at buffalo, and instead of leaving with some cash, I got a cool trench coat and this guess jacket - neat

my face looks like a marshmallow - I think my beauty faded a few years back or something -

and Ive been healing all alone - no damsel to sooth the bruising left after that show. I love bruises. I hit a vessel in the back of my hand and so my hand has this awesom bruise all over the back of it -


yes, I was seeing this girl for a handfull of weeks there. In the beggining, it seemed like a fresh clean situation, an opportunity for something cool - but then it kind of sputtered and didnt really get off the ground. thats the dating game huh? it was a very short time - but still, I started to listen to a death in june song that I was listening to when I first met her last night and it made me sad -to recall how I felt then, the excitement of meeting someone new and cool and the potential for romance - all in all it was a good time though - more fun at first when she liked me then at the end when she broke it off - ha ha - and theres this person,with haunting dark eyes and black hair, that seems to drift through the back of my mind still -this girl that I hope to get to date someday- but I try to let life speak to me you know -
yeah, Im trying to drink just one night a week now -