today, today i write words from my heart and not from my head. I sit here alone in a silent room wondering where the fuck did i go wrong? I love, I love people who truly love me and hate people who pretend to. I am nearing the end of my limitations and I only wish i had something to hang on to. I look around and wonder why am i still around. All i know is that i am nearing the end. I wish i could deal with all but there isnt much to deal with. I am a scared little girl in the body if an adult. I scare myself with my thoughts, I'd scare you too, for sure. Does the end come when its 100% bad and 0% good around you? If so i am at 98% and 2%. I hang on in hopes that good will turn to 3% or maybe 4% instead i am at 2%. And with everything that is going on it seems as though everthing is just getting worse. Superficial "friends" hurt. Why do i find those kind? Fuck it i'm done.
~B
~B
When that happens the right people you need in your life start showing up. Don't stop loving people - we need more like you out there.
Peace