blayne

NIce ta meet ya...hope so see you soon

Yeah, it was great talking to you too! I hope my drunken ramblings weren't too psychotic...

I added you also.

See ya around.

i know what you mean. i used to feel like that a lot. but i think i just grew numb to it. like, when i was younger, hell, even a couple years ago, i was REALLY ALIVE. like when i felt great, i felt GREAT. but then again, when i felt bad i felt REALLY BAD. i guess you could say it was in relation to an ex girlfriend, but fuckit, that bitch was crazy.

anyway, my point is that i'm not sure whether i miss that or not. i miss being that happy and bright eyed and just amazed at life, and love, and all that other happy crappy bullshit. but then again, it just opened me up to being FUCKIN CRUSHED. which was just horrible and i wouldnt wish it on anyone i know. but i guess you cant have the good without the bad huh?

i dont know which is worse or better yet. i'll just have to give it time i guess, which is what i suggest you try and do. just give it some time..........

I know exactly how you feel babe. I was the queen of popularity in high school, must've known at least a hundred people who'd say hi when I walked in in the morning. When I moved 30 minutes away from there in my grad year everyone didn't want to know me anymore it seemed. God that hurt. That was in 96 though, a fair amount of time ago. I'm pretty use to being on my own now (doesn't hurt that I'm an only child) but the funny thing about it is that I feel odd when someone joins me at the coffee shop. Weird eh? I do, however, go through really rough phases where all I want to do is cry, it can be hard when all my buddies are away in university.

If you ever need an ear, I'm hear for ya. +o)

I've had that happen.

you know what's interesting? When that happens and then two years later you start liking them and do things with them and all the sudden they don't like you anymore. and then you don't like them anymore either. and 6 months later they apologize for not being in love with you. weirdos.

hmm...

in where?

oh wow, I just saw the entry where you told me happy birthday... hehe. Thanks

dammit, I missed an entry dedicated to me. Thanks

Hey, no using my name in vain!

finding people is great. I have a funny story. I had a crush on this boy in 5th grade but I moved. So then, probably about 8 years later I'm playing around on ICQ and I randomly decided to look him up and yay, I found him. Hehe. He didn't really remember me.
not that we were great friends. and not that we're great friends now. It was just funny.