blasfemme

alright, done with all this sadness shit. i am not sad, really. just a little melancholy.

somebody bitch slap me back into reality. this cross is too heavy to keep toting around. martyrdom 101 is done.

we now return to our regularly retarded radia...

sleep does wonders for a person....i'm better now sweeties.

4 hours of sleep
a glass of wine before leaving home
2 mai bocks in a half hour before
a movie i had seen just earlier.

i should have just been honest but
i didn't want to disappoint him, i wanted to spend time with him as he is leaving in a matter of days.

so...
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i'm out for a bit....see you kids.
no worries, i'll be around. if you know how to get ahold of me feel free to do so.

thanks 730A_trixel_fem for talking to me and loving me up.

when the warm wind blows
through the corridors and tiled walls
there you are
the mad guardian of your empty room

no rain,
only tears.
lost wallet-
-found wallet
hope
the person who turned it in
enjoys the $10 that was in it.
the important stuff remained.

yes, it's true,
i care for this man
i haven't cared this way for a long while.
it's good
it's bad
i suspect
it will be awhile
before i let it happen again
happy
to share
these moments with...
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up too late, up too early....what the hell did i eat at the hard times cafe anyway? it's sitting in my stomach like a rock.

ike reilly was awesome as usual. i'm not sure i am going back tonite tho. i spent too much money yesterday in general. i need rest. it's supposed to storm this weekend, so perhaps i'll lay in my room and...
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75 mile drive in the middle of the night. awake, alive, music blaring, eyes transfixed on the cement escape route.

driving to nowhere in particular gives me this feeling i can't quite explain. leaving my solid, steady environment to explore a part of something i wouldn't normally encounter. chasing silence to the end of the road, having one of those heart to hearts with myself....
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there's a woodchipper in my alley,
or maybe that's the sound of my brain, chipping thoughts....

i'm going horseback riding kids.