you...
know, i really haven't had much to say recently. i'm not in the sharing mood. things i have written over time have been over analyzed and misconstrued and created a situation in which i lost someone i cared dearly about. i really wish this wasn't the case, i miss that person immensly. i try to convince myself i don't care, i'm convinced he doesn't....yeah well, i'm a dumb ass like that. i care more than i'd like to given the obvious state of that relationship. yes it's true, i cry myself to sleep on the nights i can't medicate myself adequately.
i haven't "moved on". no matter how many times i said it wouldn't be that way i never got credit. how could i?? in order to move on there has to be some closure. i won't get that here. i won't seek it either. i'm not going to throw myself at anyone's feet, that's just not my style. my heart is in fact broken.
anyhow, enough of this drivel, there's really nothing more i can say or do, except regret and forget.
welcome to monday, blah.
know, i really haven't had much to say recently. i'm not in the sharing mood. things i have written over time have been over analyzed and misconstrued and created a situation in which i lost someone i cared dearly about. i really wish this wasn't the case, i miss that person immensly. i try to convince myself i don't care, i'm convinced he doesn't....yeah well, i'm a dumb ass like that. i care more than i'd like to given the obvious state of that relationship. yes it's true, i cry myself to sleep on the nights i can't medicate myself adequately.
i haven't "moved on". no matter how many times i said it wouldn't be that way i never got credit. how could i?? in order to move on there has to be some closure. i won't get that here. i won't seek it either. i'm not going to throw myself at anyone's feet, that's just not my style. my heart is in fact broken.
anyhow, enough of this drivel, there's really nothing more i can say or do, except regret and forget.
welcome to monday, blah.
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