i just had THE longest journal entry here and i ama retard and hit my back button and now NO!!!
gerrrrr.
my boy just left. my heart swells and bursts. i miss him already. i missed him this morning, at the thought of his leaving. this is so hard. this is one of the hardest things i have ever had to do. it's one of the things that lets me know how much i care. it would be easier to just say "fuck this!". not easier in the sense that it would be easy to say but giving up is always the easy way out. i can't give up on this. we have something here. i feel it.
recently my thoughts have turned to leaving SG. i have been here since december 2002. it has become so much my home. last nite i went to SGTC Flesh Fest 2K4. it reminded me why i have stayed for so long. i am not ready to leave. not yet. this is the place i LOVE. you people are the people i love.
which leads into my next blurb....
i have been a shitty friend. really, i see it. life has been up my ass and i have just dropped out of site. it's my M.O. i tend to crawl under a rock and close people out. i am sorry. i have vowed to myself that i will try to rectify this situation. i need to be a better friend.
i am off to chanhassen. gonna go see the colt and try to find a smile in the day. i really really miss tim.
hope your sunday is beautiful.
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gerrrrr.
my boy just left. my heart swells and bursts. i miss him already. i missed him this morning, at the thought of his leaving. this is so hard. this is one of the hardest things i have ever had to do. it's one of the things that lets me know how much i care. it would be easier to just say "fuck this!". not easier in the sense that it would be easy to say but giving up is always the easy way out. i can't give up on this. we have something here. i feel it.
recently my thoughts have turned to leaving SG. i have been here since december 2002. it has become so much my home. last nite i went to SGTC Flesh Fest 2K4. it reminded me why i have stayed for so long. i am not ready to leave. not yet. this is the place i LOVE. you people are the people i love.
which leads into my next blurb....
i have been a shitty friend. really, i see it. life has been up my ass and i have just dropped out of site. it's my M.O. i tend to crawl under a rock and close people out. i am sorry. i have vowed to myself that i will try to rectify this situation. i need to be a better friend.
i am off to chanhassen. gonna go see the colt and try to find a smile in the day. i really really miss tim.
hope your sunday is beautiful.
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I soooo can relate to that. And I'm getting ready to cry my eyes out very soon... but there's no way I'm letting go
I'm with you on that. Do what you feel is right. Fuck what reason commands.
If I haven't told you lately...
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