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Friday Jul 11, 2003

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So again it is 4:15 in the morning and I can't sleep. Grandma has now left the house to go back to Aunt Cathy's, and that means I can blast my music as loud as I want to. But this particular twilight has not been filled with happy music, or thrash, or rap, or even light tunes. No, I have been walking around contemplating the current state of affairs listening to music that evokes deep personal emotion and resonates many themes in my life. Right now the copmputer's speaker (that's where all my music is, no boombox) are turned up to the absolute loudest point, and the woofer is blowing solid on my right foot.
This time of night is usually when my voice is best, so I picked up the guitar and played "Karma Police" a few times, almost as loud as I could. Later on, I started singing the Israel Kamakawiwo version of "Somewhere Over The Rainbow" as I was wandering from room to room. I found myself going through almost every single one of Lexi's journals on the site while listening to these songs, and just singing them as loud as possible, tears forming quickly as I scream in this empty house. For me, it may seem desperate, but it is very theraputic. Even now, as I follow along Jeff Buckley's stirring cover of Leonard Cohen's "Hallelujah", in this house I sound like an opera singer, even with all the scratches and scowls in my voice that occur when something hits me that I can't stop. I feel as if it's some indominatable force, pushing me along and giving me the strength to bring out the pain in my soul. I don't know what it is, but damn it feels good to have.

I want to share the playlist with you guys, because I can't keep this to myself. if you can assemble it, try listening to it in the dark, all by yourself, and if you know the words, belt that shit out as loud as possible.

1. "Somewhere Over The Rainbow"--Israel Kamakawiwo
2. "That Lonesome Road" --James Taylor
3. "Have A Little Faith In Me"--John Hiatt
4. "Pink Moon"--Nick Drake
5. "Desire"--Ryan Adams
6. "One Starry Night"--Shades Apart
7. "Hallelujah"--Jeff Buckley (Leonard Cohen Cover)
8. "Joey"--Bob Dylan
9. "Cabaret"--The Working Title
10. "With Or Without You" (Live From Rattle & Hum)--U2
11. "The River"--Bruce Springsteen
12. "Satisfied Mind"--Jeff Buckley (David Houston cover)

"I don't write my music for Sony. I write it for the people who are screaming down the road crying to a full blast stereo. There is also music I'll make that will never-ever-ever be for sale. This is my music alone, this is my true home; from which all things are born and from which my life will spring untainted and unworried, fully of my own body" -- Jeff Buckley
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leiru13:
nice playlist, by the way. You read every one of my journals? Shit.

*runs away now*

you should join some groups. I'm sure there is something that you can get into. No SG carolina though. Go to the Hook-up board and see if you can generate interest in one.
Jul 10, 2003
xxanastasiaxx:
Great playlist..
U2 is always great to listen to in the dark
joey-bob dylan is awesome ..my favorite though is
tangled up in blue.
the river is such a sad song..that is about his sister who got pregnant and had to get married.
I can't listen to any version of over the rainbow always makes me cry..
Jul 11, 2003

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