Hi everybody, today I really wanna talk about how modelling on SG is affecting my life.
Sure, I'm really new here, I'm just a hopeful yet, but, modelling on SG is affecting my life on the good and bad way, and I really wanna talk about it. First I really need to tell that be SG is a child dream for me. Since I was 12, I think, I follow the models of sg by Instagram, and dream about be one of these girls, actually I never was a normal child. Since I was 12 my life started to change (in a good way, I judge), I started to get interested to BDSM things, alternative modelling, lingerie modelling, started to try to be sexy (of course, I was a child, but I really wanted be a woman), and I started to dream stuff about my future. When started the adolescence, this became potent, big dreams. First time I dreamt to be model, I think I was 6, but now I wanted to be sexy/naked model. I wanted be stripper, dancer, porn actress, cam girl, call girl and things like that... But I was too afraid... So last year I've decided to be happy, do what I've ever wanted. So I've decided start modelling on SG. I don't think I'm a good model, but I'm trying so much to get better, and dream to go pink on SG. And it affected my life so much.
First... I've been fat since I was a child, and my mom always told me things that messed a lot with my psychological state. I grew up crying front of a mirror, just hating my own body. It stopped only when I came to SG, my self esteem change so much, and to a better way, now I think I'm beautiful and use some clothes that I've never used before.
But... There was a bad way too. My family is a typical Brazilian family, religious and conservative family. people that care too much with what the other people will think about them. When my mom discovered that I was on SG, She stopped talking with me. Told me a lot of cruel things and just abandoned me. But sincerely, I don't think it is a great problem to me, She never loved or help me all life, and I'm really willing to be happy on my way, and realize my dreams.
So... I'm so happy to be here <3
(sorry about my bad English hahah)
