bladez

K, I think I've seriously got a knack for meeting awesome women I get along with REALLY well and hit it off with really well, and yet, can't have. First there was Twyla (a couple months ago) who had a b/f, then theres Jennifer who I'm totally and utterly in love with, and the only thing keeping us from being together is about 3000 miles. Now tonight I end up at a friends B-day party and meet another girl. She and I agree on everything from music and movies to politics and religion. I've NEVER met a girl who's been on the exact wave length as me until tonight. And she's really cute too, and only about a year older than me. But somehow I don't think her husband was particularly fond of me. Maybe it had something to do with the fact that for the 4 hours I was at the party she completely ignored him and spent the whole time talking with me. We talked about everything I mentioned above, plus things like our heritage and blood lines. Hell, I even know how her parents met! She even thinks me and her mother would get along really well. God I hope Jennifer is able to get up here soon...and if all goes well, she'll be accepted into Mt. Royal College and will be going to school here. I'm getting tired of having someone, but not at the same time. We've got each other on the emotional level, but after almost 2 months I miss her touch too. It's really starting to hurt. And that's what really bugs me about the girls I've been meeting now. Especially tonight. I can be with them on the physical level and an intellectual level, but I don't know about the emotional level. I I know won't love any of them as much as I do Jennifer (which is what's stopping me from actually trying to be with anyone else), but they're something I can have and be with now...provided they aren't married that is. I think that if she weren't married, I would have asked for her number tonight. Fuck, whatever...gotta stop this emo confusion bullshit. Sorry to those of you who actually made it this far. This one prolly didn't make much sense. Think I'm gonna go smoke a bowl now. So much for quitting....