bladez

so I had to inform my mom what I was doing for x-mas this year. apparently me sitting at home alone this year isn't an option. Damnit! So I guess that means I'm going with her and her b/f to his parents place for dinner. fuck. Maybe I'll try to find a way out of it. I'm just way to uncomfortable and feel way to out of place when I'm there. Fack...I dunno. I'm sure I'll find a way to get out of it.

In other news, I've been doing a lot of thinking lately and I think I'm going to start looking for a therapist in the new year. Unfortunately my health benefits won't cover a psychiatrist (who can perscribe meds for my depression if I need it) only a psychologist, but hey....it's better than nothing right? Anything to try and fix my head.

But on the good side of things, I finally got my money back from the bank, so now I can close that account, tell them to go fuck themselves and give a different bank my business. And things with Jessica seem to be going well. Went out for a mutual friends birthday last night, drove her home and agreed to get together again today for a bit. So hopefully I can make something come of that. 'Course in the New Year I'm also supposed to take Alicia out, so I should prolly be a little careful with this situation...

K, that's enough.