bladez

Have you ever been to lazy to get up and reach the remote control, so instead you watch some cheesy, sappy bullshit movie on tv? Yea...me to! And instead of the whole "warm fuzzy" feeling those pieces of crap are supposed to instill in a person, all it did was piss me off. Although, I must admit it did open my eyes on some things, perhaps not in a good way tho. Maybe this whole infatuation I've been going through is a load of shit. Maybe it's just some sick game that life has decided to play. Why the hell do people have to feel. I wish I could go back to the way I was. Back to when I was quite literally emotionally cold. When I didn't feel shit. No love, No depression, No hate. Nothing. I had nobody to worry about, and nobody to worry about me. Life was simpler then. Fuck, I really need to get into a fight. Think I'm gonna go for a walk and see what I can find...With any luck I'll be coming back with new bruises and something broken. It's time for my life to just fuck off. It's time for me to disappear.