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Thursday Apr 21, 2005

Apr 21, 2005
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I am so weak! I was doing good to day and only had 2 smokes at work. I got home and was going insane from the lack of nicotene. I went to Starbucks and there was this guy playing really badly on a guitar, it was very anoying. So, I broke down and bought a pack of ciggs. My will power is not what it used to be. It also dosen't help that I have been smoking constantly 1 pack or more a day for the last 10 years. Yes, I know that these are not very good excuses but whatever. I have only smoked...well bought 1 pack since sunday. Not including the one I bought tonight.
Anyway, I feel like a looser. I used to hate the fact that something like nicotene is controlling my life. And that used to be enough to make me quit but now it's like "I don't care"
I do but it's too freaking hard.
Oh well, tomorow is another day.
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undecieved176140:
I feel kinda cheesy for saying that you can do it, but I really do believe you can...I cannot really imagine how hard it must be, but everything is possible.
Apr 23, 2005
niav:
get those twizzlers! I've heard from ex-smokers that the worst thing is the habbit of having something in your hand to fidget with. Smoking is addictive because of the nicotine, but also the security of having something to do, to hold, and something in your mouth.
Apr 23, 2005

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