Its Blog time again.
I feel like Im waiting for the other shoe to down. I hate feeling like something bad is waiting for me just around the corner. My mom dont have the feeling, so that good. I keep thinking maybe its because October makes me feel sad now. October was my favorite month of the year. The fall leaves start to change, pumpkin favored everything is out again, and Halloween is just around the corner. But now all I feel is dread about the whole month. On October 15th last year I lost my job at New Horizon and I have been fighting uphill ever since. I found out in November 2010 that I had Cervical Pre-cancer. I had to deal with that for 6 months. I finally got it removed and Im on the right past just that. Im unsure if Rob and I want kids but we dont have the choose now because I cant carry the baby to full term. So I have been upset about that. Also my depression has been a roller coaster as of last. I have been super happy one minute, then Im crying then I pissed off. Im also back to being a night owl. I come home from work about 11:15pm to 11:30pm and stay up until 3am or 4am. I really cant help it. I cant come home and go to bed I need to chill out for awhile before hand.
Job land is doing much better. I got turned out for a lot of great jobs, but I got back into Hotels so Im happy. I quit JcPenney because Most of the management were out of there minds. Never of them are on the same page about never thing. I also I didnt like being treated like a lazy high school but I didnt happen to get a ICAP that day or that it was personal my fault that the stores scores were down. Our GM had a poor way of talking to people. I finally had it with all of the bull shit and just stopped coming in. I got a great job working at GateHouse Suite working the front desk. I no longer dread coming to work. I feel at peace here.
Relationship land! Well Rob and I are doing well. In April we have been together for 5 years! Rob and I have a lot of bills to get paid off. We are chipping away at the debt we got our self into. Im hoping to have it all paid off by July 2012. My car will be paid off in 5 more months. We are also trying I figure out when we want to move to Portland Oregon. I know we are mostly waiting until all of our debts are paid off or are up to date. Im hoping we can move by Summer time 2013. I have been looking into Pods and the best way to move a cat. Its looks like we are going to have to fly Loki across the country. That would be the least amount of stress on her.
We have also gotten rid of some friendships that wont working for both of us. Some were harden than others but we both feel some better after doing it. The stress level as dropped off almost to nothing.
Other stuff! Rob has started running a Changeling Top table game. Which is a lot of fun. We have been running it Friday night but with Jarred and Myself working 2nd shift. We are moving it to Sunday afternoons.
ttnf for now
I feel like Im waiting for the other shoe to down. I hate feeling like something bad is waiting for me just around the corner. My mom dont have the feeling, so that good. I keep thinking maybe its because October makes me feel sad now. October was my favorite month of the year. The fall leaves start to change, pumpkin favored everything is out again, and Halloween is just around the corner. But now all I feel is dread about the whole month. On October 15th last year I lost my job at New Horizon and I have been fighting uphill ever since. I found out in November 2010 that I had Cervical Pre-cancer. I had to deal with that for 6 months. I finally got it removed and Im on the right past just that. Im unsure if Rob and I want kids but we dont have the choose now because I cant carry the baby to full term. So I have been upset about that. Also my depression has been a roller coaster as of last. I have been super happy one minute, then Im crying then I pissed off. Im also back to being a night owl. I come home from work about 11:15pm to 11:30pm and stay up until 3am or 4am. I really cant help it. I cant come home and go to bed I need to chill out for awhile before hand.
Job land is doing much better. I got turned out for a lot of great jobs, but I got back into Hotels so Im happy. I quit JcPenney because Most of the management were out of there minds. Never of them are on the same page about never thing. I also I didnt like being treated like a lazy high school but I didnt happen to get a ICAP that day or that it was personal my fault that the stores scores were down. Our GM had a poor way of talking to people. I finally had it with all of the bull shit and just stopped coming in. I got a great job working at GateHouse Suite working the front desk. I no longer dread coming to work. I feel at peace here.
Relationship land! Well Rob and I are doing well. In April we have been together for 5 years! Rob and I have a lot of bills to get paid off. We are chipping away at the debt we got our self into. Im hoping to have it all paid off by July 2012. My car will be paid off in 5 more months. We are also trying I figure out when we want to move to Portland Oregon. I know we are mostly waiting until all of our debts are paid off or are up to date. Im hoping we can move by Summer time 2013. I have been looking into Pods and the best way to move a cat. Its looks like we are going to have to fly Loki across the country. That would be the least amount of stress on her.
We have also gotten rid of some friendships that wont working for both of us. Some were harden than others but we both feel some better after doing it. The stress level as dropped off almost to nothing.
Other stuff! Rob has started running a Changeling Top table game. Which is a lot of fun. We have been running it Friday night but with Jarred and Myself working 2nd shift. We are moving it to Sunday afternoons.
ttnf for now