blackjackflint

The bleak nights follow on the wings of excitement. I leave for New Mexico on the 18th, a three day drive on a sketchy car. But on the other side, an excellent job doing very interesting work with economic analysis.

The last six months of my life have been characterized by a strong sense of purpose and up-and-comingness. I've been sort of piddling around, not really knowing what I was doing, but suddenly I sparked, and have had a thousand projects and a gazillion goals since that time. This is just one manifestation of the whole process.

And I'm finally single and feeling good about it. Most of the time. The nights are still hard, and occassional panic attacks have to be staved off, but there is a pervading sense of betterment in my life that I can't object to.

I hope everyone else has some positve change going on in their lives...

one thing that I've never managed to resolve...how do you go about having fun, experimenting, etc. without ending up attached to someone again? I'm not really into casual sex much, but I think in the future sometime I might like something light and enjoyable. Ah...the sexual frustration of a single person, I had nearly forgotten...

Yarghh!!!